for the future too

They kissed. Tentatively at first, measuring the pressure of each others lips and hesitation.  And then with more force as their arms went around each other and the flame of passion consumed their every thought. Nothing could be heard. Nothing could be seen but the image of each other in their mind. The picture that had been forming for a very long time in his mind and had started to take shape in hers.

I need to feel something

She had told him before giving in to the feeling that had been growing inside her ever since they had first locked gazes and she had seen the pain and love he was feeling for her. The pain at seeing her with someone else and the love at knowing that she still wanted to be with him.

All I see is you

He had told her when his lips had parted from hers to inhale air. Blue eyes filled with a light she had seen before. Filled with a longing she had only hoped for. The pain of not knowing weather love was worth it. Weather he was worth the risk had now been diffused with each passing minute his lips kept touching hers. The insecurities at being hurt again and broken had now been vanished from her mine. All by the feel of his body against her.

I love you

She told him and with that she set free the monster that had been consuming his insides. A monster that had been living within him ever since she'd chose the love of Neil over his. Since the moment she had chosen to be apart from him instead of staying by his side. He had seen the indecision in her eyes when she had seen him again. The astonishment at seeing him alive when she had already chosen to be with another man.

Her heart had been broken and torn apart when Neil had come home bloody and dirty saying that Gabe had been killed in the war. That his body had been taken by a monster and was certainly dead. She had almost gone mad with grief and he had been the only one there for her. The only person who was suffering as much as her. She had listen to the broken words of grief and guilt that were consuming his every thought. He deserve to die, Neil had said referring to himself. He was the one they were after and by killing Gabe they had lost the only person who  might have help them in the end.

He had held her when the nightmares became to real. When a memory had re-opened the wound Gabe's dead had left behind. When the tears came and had not let her go until they had all stopped.

Standing on the verge between chaos and abyss she had chosen to move on. To forget the pain and to try to re-start her life with the only man who accepted the fact that she could never love anyone as much as she'd love Gabe. A man who said he'd take whatever she could give him as long as he could remain by her side. Guarding her. Protecting her and making sure the wound inside her heart never broke her the way it once had. Making sure she was safe and held when she needed the support of another human life. A man who'd promise to always be there for her and to be always near to keep her safe. The man she was now betraying him. By being here with Gabe, by giving up the hope of love that had blossom inside his heart after thinking. After being sure that he would never love again.

This is going to break him

Break him!

And break him it did. While Gabe and Sarah were holding each other and he was kissing her face and she was tracing his face to make herself belief that somehow he had escape.

Neil had been watching. Not with his eyes but using the inner bond that tied Gabe to him. The same silver string that had tide them together ever since that night. The one he hadn't felt since the day Gabe died. It was pulsing now the same way it always did when he was with Sarah.

He was alive and with her.

The woman he'd loved. Who he had given his all for, now had chosen him instead. Why are you so mad about? He asked himself, you've always known she loves him and not you.

Yes he had known but it still hurt and broke his heart at the realization that she would no longer love him. That she would go back to being with Gabe without a glance at the broken heart she was leaving behind.

Or maybe she'd noticed and pause. Tell him she still loved him but she loved Gabe more. Had always loved him.

A dark flame began to burn in Neil's stomach. A flame filled with loathing and anger towards himself for being stupid enough to fall for a girl who was already in love with someone else. At Gabe for conquering the heart of a girl who was better than him in every aspect. At Sarah for faking love and passion. For faking smiles and gratitude.

The fire was burning throughout him. Setting on fire his blood and common sense.

He was filled with hatred with each passing moment he felt the pulsing silver bond shaking with life.